On the move and out of the fog

I'm so excited about moving back to Perris! Okay really, who gets excited about moving back to Perris unless you live in San Jacinto/Hemet (laughing, but quickly returning to a serious face). It's not the 6 bedroom 3 full bathrooms 3,006 square foot home we moved out of prior to moving to OZ, but it is perfect...for now. It's exactly what we are looking to do with our own land. It's a nice 3 bedroom 2 bath country home tucked away high in the Gavilan Hills of Perris overlooking the city lights below as well as the snow covered mountain tops of the San Bernardino and San Jacinto Mountains (on a smog free clear day). There is a covered patio outside the master bedroom where I can enjoy my mornings with a cup of coffee and MacBook, watching the quails, road runners, blue jays and other small aviaries run across the 100% gated 5 acre lot. It's country enough for George, and I get to be a live like I'm country while still being only 15 minutes away from my nail shop and the nearest Macaroni Grill. Because it's completely fenced in, I can let Dorian go outside and not worry about him. Did I mention there is a jacuzzi tub in the master bedroom? The office space George and I will share is much larger than the tiny room we are attempting to squeeze into now. However, we have already agreed that if I decide to take over the large dining room, that is an option as well. There is a center island in the kitchen with barstools, so we may just use that as our table (as I have finally convinced George to throw out his bachelor dining table). My men are extremely messy, and having them eat in an area that has cream colored carpet, is a clean up job I'm not willing to take on.

I'm looking forward to not hearing my neighbors wash their clothes, the sound of only one child screaming & playing, rather than 20, and the relaxation of country living. Over the past three months I've developed chest pain. I've seen specialists, my doctor, had tests done, been placed on a heart monitor, and none revealed what George and I already knew, I was under too much stress. Every time my phone rang my heart would began to jump and I experienced shortness of breath. I was losing passion for my businesses and everything else in life. I wasn't me, I was this version of me I had created to accomplish all these tasks and remain sane.

My Pastor wanted to give me 30 days off from my duties in the ministry in order to allow for a time of rest and focus. It took less than 30 minutes after our conversation regarding the time off, for God to remind me of what I needed to do and what he had instructed me to do several months prior. There were some additional tasks in life I had set aside in order to regain focus and passion that should have never been set aside, like school, my family and my businesses. Sure in September I predicted this coming. I said in my postings how tired I was, yet I never took the time off (and the week spent in Mississippi visiting George's family was not time off because I had to still attend online classes). I needed some true time off. I have found the break in the storm, and instead of filling it with extra "stuff", I exercised my right to say that simple word that we often feel we cannot say in fear of hurting someone's feelings, "no." How would I get myself from under the multitude of tasks that I handle daily? I began delegating some things, and some things I just let go altogether.... and wow, the world continued to spin! I spent more time with my husband and son. I cleaned my house for a change and actually folded the clean clothes rather than leaving them lying on the couch. It was only when I stopped to breathe that I was even able to find another place for us to live. The deal was solidified in a matter of 48 hours. I called the man, we went to see the place, I went back the next day handed the man a check for $500 to take down all the signs soliciting other interested parties, and we set a date to move in.

When God calls us to do something and we accept the calling, he expects us to change our name to Nike and "Just Do It!"